I was not feeling it this morning. Everything for my run was set to go great! I joined the running group (one of them I belong to) for my first group run with them. There were ~15 other people running about the same pace as me, which I did expect to ever happen. The route was amazingly beautiful (for the most part). Here are the views from the path when I arrived:
not feeling it at all. My feet hurt. My thighs chaffed (for the 1st time ever when running). There were mole hills (hello walking). It got warm faster than I thought it would. My head hurt. Oh the stinging in my eyes from sweat. The doubting thoughts started in (can I really come anywhere close to my goal? i should just walk the half. i can't do this today or any other day). It was rough. I put on a partial happy-facade and let people know I was ok. After all, doubts and chaffing happen - I just didn't need them plaguing me today.
We went five miles this way, turned around and came back:
When all is said and done, I know I can run the distance I am training for (13.1). I know I can try my best to meet my time goals. I know I will persevere. I know today is only one run of many and I'm working on accepting that bad runs happen. I just have not ever had a 12 miler that was so tough on me before.
Training plan: 12 miles at 10:15/mi
Today: 12.00 miles at 10:20/mi (2:04:08 time)
Calories: Enough so I can eat lots at my appetizer get together this afternoon
Stops: This was new to me...the group stopped for water at mile 3, 6, 10. I'm not used to all out stopping, but it was nice to have gallons of water stashed along the route.
Hills requiring me to walk: 3 (I can't ever move anywhere hilly because I'll have to retreat to all treadmill running)
Miles with Maddie: 1.6 miles yesterday
Temperature: at start ???, at finish 72F (63 relative humidity)
Splits: all over the place (low 9:50/mi, high 11:06/mi)
Walking away with: a sense of what a bad run is like when I'm heathy and the knowledge that even when I have a bad run I can still manage to finish my miles